Happy fathers' day to your father.
For i dont have one!
He was not there to see me smile when i got my SPM result albeit it was not a good one, nor was he there to hug me when i passed my STPM. He was not there to send me to the university, neither there on my graduation day, nor was he there taking picture on that day with me while my friends were happy snapping pictures away with their parents. He wasn’t there when i treat my family to a dinner when i received my first pay check, not because the restaurant wasn't fancy enough for him or because i can only afford chicken and not those expensive prawns, because he don't even like prawns. He was again absent when i walked the stage for the second time to take my other degree, and again for the third time when i took the other one as well, and he will not be there again to see me walk the stage for the umpteen times later.
But I know he is here with me, for his blood will remain in my body till the day I die.
He was not there to see me smile when i got my SPM result albeit it was not a good one, nor was he there to hug me when i passed my STPM. He was not there to send me to the university, neither there on my graduation day, nor was he there taking picture on that day with me while my friends were happy snapping pictures away with their parents. He wasn’t there when i treat my family to a dinner when i received my first pay check, not because the restaurant wasn't fancy enough for him or because i can only afford chicken and not those expensive prawns, because he don't even like prawns. He was again absent when i walked the stage for the second time to take my other degree, and again for the third time when i took the other one as well, and he will not be there again to see me walk the stage for the umpteen times later.
But I know he is here with me, for his blood will remain in my body till the day I die.
I love you Abah, and I am trying my best to make emak happy, although no one could ever come close to what you have provided her and her children with.
You provided us with lots of love.
May god bless, and the prophets will grant their syafaat to you, because you are the best father I have ever had, and will ever have, and i never wish for anything else, but you.
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Al-Fatihah buat abah fiebie...
moga dia tenang di sana..
dengan iringan doa dari anak2nya...
Menitik air mata salju i baca entry kali nie...
Al-fatihah...uols cerita pada i kisah suka duka uols bersama abah uols pun i dah sedih...
I tak sanggup kehilangan kedua2 nya...hanya doa supaya mereka panjang umur dan diberikan keredhaan didunia dan diakhirat..
Aminnn
This is so heartfelt. So sorry for your loss. *HUGS* I'm sure your Abah would've proud to see how you turn up now :-)
Al-fatihah to ur dad fiebie. Tho he was not there to witness ur success but u make him proud and i bet if he's still around he will be very2 proud and happy. *hugs*
sayunya mak dengar..tu lah, mak ni yg dok jejauh ni pon sedey sebab ayah pun sakit sakit senantiasa but then what to do, kita pun ada cita cita kita..apa apa pun, semoga roh ayahanda uols dicucuri rahmatNya...doa lah bebanyak..sedekah jariah pun bagus, kan noks?
saya suka baca blog akak.
saya link akak leh kan.
tenkiu
y do i felt dat u r not talkg abt a dead father, but an absent one?
fb, kisah kita serupa..
walaupun tak sempurna.. tapi syukur padanya sentiasa
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